I don't know japanese good enough to pass N3
And I knew it from the beginning

I just wanted to see...
if I can study hard enough
or if I'm smart enough
or maybe just luck...
I don't know

But thing is I was fully aware that I'm going to fail

But then this sort of exam tension kicked in
and I went going on and on
about how I'm no good and not going to pass this like no way

And every fucking one of my friends was like
"Stop talking bullshit! You're cool and smart and you surely gonna pass this!"

And then when I explain how I'm not even close to knowing shit I ought to
they still keep on insisting that it's just me being fucking too humble or something

And (oh my fucking slippers!) how all of them when they going to know that I failed
would keep on saying
"Cheer up! It's not the end of the world! You gonna do better next time!"

and bla bla bla

Oh why?! Fucking why? Not even one of them ever believe me that I don't care?

Sorry, I really needed to get this off my chest.