Записи с темой: m (список заголовков)

I want to say something

But I don't know what to say...

I still believe words make your feelings cheaper...
Like when you go on and on about your feelings it's like you don't really feeling it
but just showing off.
I know that's not all the time true, but that is how I feel.

That's why I'm redoing that post for tens time.

I don't even know where to start and is there even a point in starting.
Saying that I miss M like hell.
Saying that my heart aches a bit when I listen to them
But saying that I'm a grown up girl and I know it pass
I like so many things that in a year or two I may not be a fangirl at all.

With all those things, I thought again "I should be masochistic too be sad and happy at once" lol

See you soon.

@настроение: happilly sad

@темы: music, love, cries, M


About music (I guess...)

Reading 救音's lyrics
Even if I don't understand half of it
Even if I'm not all that emotional

I cried... And got angry...

It's that kind of emotions when you know it's no one fault
but you can't help but feel angry

"A really important song you said...
A song about wanting to ease people's pain with your music...
Did that feeling already disappeared?
You don't think like that anymore?
Indeed, it's like a broken promise...
A promise you couldn't keep..."

That's what was running through my mind...

I know that's unreasonable and selfish
And I just need to have my own life and stop depending on you.

Now, by typing it I got better... stopped worrying and all

See you soon.

@темы: worries, music, love, M


I'm hopeless

And all the butthurt thoughts will remain only in twitter

Yesterday (and I had a serious reason for it),
I was looking thought Ao's blog
or more like pics from his blog.

And end up all "I don't know what my feeling are doing! D:"
'Cuz well, they all so wonderful and it's so sad...

Well here you go. I just had to post this!

Cute Tetsuya-san with his dog! So adorable! :heart::heart:

A couple of fanarts. It seems like people doesn't post M's fanart on pixiv or DA
Another reason to be sad~

The quality is so low, but expressions so cute! Priceless!

And the last one

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Don't hate me for using japanese despite the fact I don't know it...

See you soon.

@темы: music, love, M, Japanese


An original intend

of the previous post was that. But I got carried away and end up with a different story
But still want to share this one.

A cool boy (is he really a boy? I start doubting it...) got a last live DVD of M
And uploaded a video on YT.
I was so moved by it so immediately sent him a long message with a lot of questions.

And when I thought that he just thinks I'm a creeper or something and not going to answer he did!

And with a long and interesting message! And now I don't know what to say...
I'm too shy >.<

But he did upload an old song (old but never heard) too.

And I watched that video for like 5 times and still can't concentrate on the song.

I'm carried away by details! (as I said in twitter ;) )

I keep on thinking

OMG Does Tetsuya still have this silly polka dot costume? Like for real? It's what, like 5 years have past?
And Masakazu in traditional clothes! I have a soft spot for those...
And what Mu-kun is wearing? Can't see at all! >.<

Or and Mazu's padawan's braid got so long by that time! He started to growing it some where around Sansan release
or Renon PV shooting... his hairs sure grown fast!

And Ao! Just in general!
At fist, I got interested in M thanks to Mu's hair style (he looks like Ryutaro's younger brother!)
So it's expectable I like him the most...

But as time past and I started to know more about them I kind of start falling for Ao...

I know that's silly, but I'm a mere fangirl. So it can't be help!

See you soon.

@темы: M, love